tired.

it pains me that its been five days and i still haven't done shit (pardon the language, but it fully captures my sentiments at this very moment) with my life. its like i have managed to put my life on pause and forget where i placed the remote. then again i always feel this way at 4 in the morning. i think maybe i'll start piano lessons. or should i take a self defense class? both perhaps. i need a schedule for structure. i need to not have time to make the time, if that makes any sense.